They say it’s not easy being green, but being green is not that bad.  Okay I am talking green as in recycling and having a goal of a ZED house zero energy design.

But you know, I always have been different.  I was a bit shy as a kid, but not as much as people thought.  My problem is I am very introverted.  Most of the time I enjoy listening to stories and hearing what others have to say.  But I do get discouraged when people are talking and I say something and then someone else says the same thing and everybody agrees with them.

It’s happened quite a bit in my life.  But what really bothers me is that people think I don’t like them because I am not chatty.  Most people don’t give me a chance to be chatty.  it takes me a bit to warm up.  As for being shy, I have had to give speeches in front of the church I was going to several times when I was a volunteer youth minister.  Speeches on what the youth group was doing, what I was doing, even had to give my youth lesson to the WHOLE CHURCH twice. (I didn’t know before hand!) 

Now I have found out that a family member or two apparently HATES that I am creative.  My not having my feet glued to the ground and wanting to NOT GO BACK TO BOOKKEEPING is stupid and I don’t deserve happiness or money.  What I don’t get is that money is required to pay bills, and bill collectors don’t like lent from my pocket.  And many people have jobs they enjoy, including these two together haven’t worked 1/2 as many jobs, and only combined do they get close to the years I put in as a bookkeeper, the job I hated.

But I love to write.  I like to draw, I love to paint, love music (just not that talented at that one) love to sing, dance, (not so much talented in either)  love to wrap music around me like a blanket, dive into a book like it’s the ocean, see the world from different eyes…

and I am good at math.. it’s why I went into bookkeeping.  Great reason huh.  I enjoy business but bookkeeping… no… not so much… and most people don’t understand

Currently watching : Miracle on 34th Street Release date: 05 October, 1999