Before I got into Neville and his teachings of Christ, and all the people of The Secret, I was just a person wandering through life, and did not really have any set goal or a future to look forward. After watching The Secret and reading it, I became aware that there was something here that I needed to dive into that needed all of my attention.

This friend that I had wanted me to be online with her in yahoo messenger every night, and at first it was great, but when I started searching within, she really did not understand it. Her life was a life of complaining, every night that is all I heard about was her complaining about her boy friend she was living with, or her step daughter or her family. All this negativity was doing nothing but dragging me down to her level. I tried to explain this to her, but she never understood, so little by little, I came on less and less, and finally I just let her go. I purged her from life forever. In order for me to move on, I had to let her go.

My last online friend, I finally let her go two weeks ago. Naturally she does not understand either. I try to accept people as they are, even if I do not agree with their life style. She is married and there is this game site she goes to and she flirts with all the guys on there and sometimes she leads them on, and personally that is not for me. Some day it will all come back and bite her in the butt…so to speak. If her husband knew what I know about her, she would be alone right now, but I will never tell, as time will take care of everything, so I let her go too.

She has been an online friend for seven years, have talked to her several times on the phone, and for a while we were in-separable online, but I changed. Even my ex (Jer) says she does not know me any more. I also live with her…lol…but we are just friends. She still has a lot of negativity in her life, but I am working on that.

I am getting to the point where I am at peace with myself. I love who I am.

Last year we had a garage sale, and it really was not going too well.About a block away there is a home that houses people that some are somewhat retarded, and others that just need to be taken care of, and it is sad, but some are just there because their grown up kids don’t want to deal with them. Anyway we had lots of clothes for men and women, and purses and watches and many other things and (Jer) walked over there and told the people that were in charge that the residents there could come over and anything they wanted, and they did, in groups of five or six at a time, they all come over and took whatever they wanted. The smiles and gratitude that was on their faces was worth it.

Sometime yet this summer, we are going to do the same thing, gather up all the things that we will never use again and just give it away. It’s a great feeling to have when you can see the gratitude in their faces.

There is nothing wrong in how you can feel energized one minute and down in the dumps the next, we all get this way, whether others will admit it or not, I for one will.

I enjoy reading what you write and no doubt will be back.

Tc, and you have a great day…and thank you…

Looking around my house, there’s quite a lot of stuff I need to let go…